Just in case you know...people were wondering what I really wanted.. this Christmas or my birthday or..well for any reason really here they are.. My new LOVE take your pic, I adore them both. You can even just leave them unwrapped, I could use some cozy love in a boot. I promise to NEVER take them off..please.
This article ..anyone check the crime in the paper lately? The robberies? This is for Mel. She will enjoy or well, maybe not like wow this is fun. Anyone wanna sell me their silver?
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I AM … a mom to many children
I WANT…to be a better Mom
I HAVE … many , many things I'd like to do.
I KEEP …finding nice things , fabrics, plants etc that I like
I WISH I COULD … stay energetic all day long everyday
I HATE … the fact that money does not grow on a tree that only me and a few others own
I FEAR …what my children may have to deal with
I HEAR … voices..oh wait those are my kids
I DON’T THINK … I ever want to stop growing and changing
I REGRET … not having them put the wood floor or tile in when we bought the house
I LOVE … my family, nice fabrics, good leather , corduroy, big buttons, the gym, wall paper, fireplaces on chilly days, hot chocolate, jazz at Christmas, really fine chocolate (Baci), bernaise sauce. , Les Halles restaurant in NYC, Spain, I'll stop there...
I AM NOT …perfect or even close though I strive for it
I DANCE … whenever I hear a song I like
I SING …when I want to embarrass Ana
I NEVER … like to give up
I RARELY … wear pink
I CRY WHEN I WATCH … things people in the world suffer through , or when my kids perform. I cry when I watch Nolan grow up.
I AM NOT ALWAYS …calm, I would like to be
I HATE THAT …my carpet gets dirty
I’M CONFUSED ABOUT …why teachers make less than actors..it shows what our society values.
I NEED … self restraint
I SHOULD …eat better, be kinder to my family, be more attentive to them, cook great meals all the time, pay someone to clean my carpet
I HOPE ..when I am old Ben & I are able to travel, he can do art, I'll tinker with different passions and grand-great grand kids, and we have a pool.
I wanted to write down what I have been doing. If I write it down I can look back and go ok..or keep myself honest. I have been seriously training my body now for about 3 or 4 weeks. I started off with my usual running like a mile or 2 4 to 5 days a week. I had lost a bit of weight over the last year or so but have remained stuck at around 128- 130. I added a personal trainer to wednesdays fo an hour, she likes to make us hurt for a week or so. I lost 5 more pounds after 3 weeks. Now I have a schedule more like this
Mon elliptical 30-40 mins with intervals 3 sets of 20 various weight sets ( ie abs, machines etc.)
Tues. Chizzled (upper body) class high intensity weight rep class 1 hr.
weds. Train with Sharon
Thurs. Chizzled (lower body) (OUCH!!!) 1 hr. / Yogilates 1 hr at 7pm
Friday off or light run and ab work
Sat either 9am fusion class or same as monday
Sun off
I really like this because I am not in charge of what I'm doing.. it's not boring and it's really strenuous. I feel so good when I see results like arm muscles , or pecs..or Inner thigh muscles ( I didn't know I had those..)
I really hope I don't lay off or get bored ..though this is almost 2 years of building up my workouts It all started with running 1-2 miles 2 days a week.
The past couple of weeks. Ana and I built an adobe house for her social studies project. It was actually fun. We have been weeding through and clearing out our posessions. It is hard as we have dumb attachments to many things. I do this best when I'm angry. :')
I made a calender for the bathroom , giving each kid a job in the bathroom daily. Not on weekends. Some success, mostly failure. We will keep at it. I think it helps some.
We went to a trunk or treat Fall festival at church. I went to a relief society crafty topics dinner thing. Fun. We made turkey things, I brought Ana with me.
I have realized I am addicted to Starbucks Signature hot chocolate, why can't I make this at home?
Ana and Gabe spent the night at Alex's and Emily's respectively for Halloween. Nolan n Leah went around the neighborhood and we had the James's over for tacos and treat handing out. We were going to watch a spooky movie but we all fell asleep.
I have been going to the gym daily and "treating" myself to a spa like hot tub and/or Sauna experience after I work out. It's quiet and smells good and is relaxing. I also have been doing a lot of strength training now.. when I don't do that I run and do weights on my own. The kids love going to the gym because they have a Wii in the kids lounge and Leah gets to makecrafts , Nolan plays on the big firetruck.
It began to rain Halloween day, somewhat soothing. The plants will be very happy. We turned on our gas firplace for the first time and I am going to put on our flannel/velvet bedding because it's so winter cozy.
I am thinking ahead to the holiday flurry of activity , cd making, turkey baking, etc. I am excited.
Ben has a photoshoot with a group he's in the 7th. Very "diesel" like with a little of a Dali photo thrown in. He really enjoys the planning and preparation. Half of the garage looks like a house. It's the set for the shoot.
That's it for now.
